Then Brene Brown saved the day. Channeling her voice into my head, I talked back to that sneaky shame monster. NO! STAY BACK! I LOVE MY LEAN CUISINE LIFE! Here is what I remembered. Cooking = time. While at some points in my past life and hopefully some points in my future life spending my time cooking has been the right choice, right now, my time is being spent elsewhere. And I love where it is being spent.
Before I had sprinted into Walmart, I had just spent an hour talking with an incredible Argentinian woman who is a convert to the LDS faith, single mother to a son with autism, first grade teacher, and one of the most courageous people I have ever met. Both of us were uplifted and edified by the conversation and I wouldn't trade that for anything. Right now, I choose to spend my time with children with autism and people who love them. I choose to spend my time with incredible artists and people of faith to create moving works of theatre. I choose to spend my time at the temple. I choose to spend my time communing in nature. (I sometimes don't even choose to spend my time shaving my legs.)
So, sneaky shame monster, I CHOOSE LEAN CUISINE!